When our Iowa friends Steve and his wife Rachel visited last year, they told us about the puppies that Steve's brother was raising. Les knew I wanted one of these puppies. When I finally remembered to email this family, he told me they had 4 litters ready the middle of Christmas. Well - when I looked at those puppies online, I knew I had to have one! This little guy was flown out here at 8 weeks old. My sister Becky was here when he flew in, so her and Leslie drove with me to the airport to get him. Needless to say, I have been VERY busy dealing with a puppy but I am so glad he is in the house!! I was going to name him Max but for some reason, Kaden decided on Dutch. So Dutch he is. He is a mini GoldenDoodle and I think it is so special that he came from Les' friends, from Les' home town in Iowa.
My Iowa bestie was here for a weekend in January. She decided to come now instead of for Les' service, and what a great decision that was. I was able to look forward to her visit, and I was so ready to have her around! We didn't do much, but we got lots of talking in. I was able to go over Les' final days with her and talk through the weeks after with her. Les and I were very good friends with Nancy, and grieving with her was so healing for me. It was a very theraputic weekend!!!
And so, my life is going on. I received many books about grief, about being alone, etc. etc. but just didn't have the desire to read them. Just the past few weeks, I finally picked up the book I received from Pastor Ken and nurse Kay. What a great book it has been! One of the things this book keeps reminding me of is that "Your spouse died. You did not" The book reminds me that I can face and deal with this grief, and then move on. I can enjoy life again. That's what God wants for me, and that's what Les would want for me. It's still one day at a time, but I AM looking forward to a JOY filled life.